one in a million

I've been going through so much lately, and I haven't really told anyone about anything that's been happening except for my brotha deveon. He's been helping me alot through so many different things and had my back like no other. I'm glad I have a friend like him, makes me feel more loved. There are so many things thats been bothering me, so many things, people bleh. I wish I can just run away to peace where there are no distractions but the sound of peace and the feel of comfort that you feel even if you may be miles away. I've met so many different people in the past year, and learned many things. Made countless amount of mistakes and learned from them. I've lost my closest ones and important things that belonged to me, and they're things that I can't get back, but they're the obstacles that God put me through to make me stronger, and theres nothing that I can do to avoid those things. It's already the last day of November and it feels like November just started, time just passes by like its nothing, but so much happens in that time. I hope things improve and get better in December. I've had so many wishes and hopes this month, and I've been praying about so many things. I've improved on personal subjects, but made mistakes, when I knew better. I think I might've gotten a cold from all that freezing during the weekend ): Like he said to her on that piece of paper, I wish that WE can have more time together with each other than the time that we have missing each other. NMN+DI. I've been falling so far away from God lately, and it's not as easy as I thought it would be to get back. I'm trying to make things easier for everyone... but I don't know if things are working out. I havent been going to youth group for over a month now, and I'm still debating on if I should be going back or not. I wish I had Deveon and Nikki with me there, but they can't be there. I should be taking a different path in life right now, and making the right decisions unlike those that I've been making nowadays. Deveon, proved a good point to me and told me that I know better and that I shouldn't be doing the things that I'm doing right now, and be taking a different path in life. But if I do take the other path in life, instead of falling into the trap that I've been fallin into to take the path that I don't seek, is to be losing YOU. & I don't want that to happen, I know things can change and I can keep you at the same time. So I really hope my plan works out, I needa be to more out there with my opinions, and get my head back in the game, and stand up back onto my feet and be more productive, cus I've been sluffin big time these days. I need my superman with the red cape to come save me from all this danger and take me back, hello ? My prince charming, where art thou ?

There's nothing in this world
There's not another boy that could make me feel so sweet
Cos he fills up my life
Like the sun, he shines bright
Boy, come with me now