11/26/09

yeahh , im so tired . couldnt even sleep well last night . . . did too much of that "thinking" . ehh ~ mann , i dont know . i feel so lost without them ! they're so important to me , they're like . . . IMPORTANT ! & even Nikki and Deveon knows that I'd go crazy over them . & its GONE ! ):
but , I'm glad that I have a brotha like Deveon . He said that he would help me find it , and go to all the stores that we went to yesterday after school and to all the classrooms and see if he can find it for me . hopefully , i can find it . i feel like so much of me missing ! i want to smile like how i do when i read those little things . they may not mean so much to you , but to me , its one of the most important things in my life . its the only thing that i had that HE gave to ME .
& i dont know how to tell him . i feel horrible , i feel so bad right now , i just want to run away . uhhh . he's probably going to be so disappointed ): he's been waiting so long , and so paitiently . . . dang , its going to suck seeeing him disappointed . but , i really do hope that everythings going to be alright .

WHY !? did this have to happen now . . .
_________ happy thanksgiving everyone !

i miss yooooh .
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