hmmm ; ♥

Haha , okay my boyfriend is gay ! ): blehhh , for keeping his status on myspace single , and having a video of him singing a song to another girl . uhh , i feel so special ! x] its really gay , it is really gay . i get so jealous of deveon and nikki always being able to see each other at school and give hugs to each other , and just basically see each other whenever they want . uhhh , i wishh i can do that with young . he forgot that i was our 3rd month on saturday , uhhh , it kinda pissed me off but whatever . we still havent really done anything major since we've been going out though . but hopefully , he can be able to come down to kent on friday and watch new moon with me , and maybe orlando and megan can come , cus i think they're the ones that giving the rides , and a double date with nikki and deveon . i still cant believe i lost those letters , they were so special to me . i read nikki's letter that deveon wrote for her for their one month , and it made me miss those letters even more . !@#$%^&*(^&%#$@!@#$%^&* i want them back dang it ! ): i never missed someone so much before , blehhh . i wish i can just be with him 24/7 and feel his warm touches , and all that good stuff . i wanna run away to the north pole or something , iono . lets just all fly up to heaven . i miss hearing his voice on the phone before i go to sleep at night , and his good night kisses ): only if i had my L and my car , then i'd be all good to go . mmmh , 2 more months left ! (: i cant wait ! heh heh heh . tomorrow is the first day of december ! (: yeeeeeee ~ lets hope things get betterr !

i love you baby ; ♥
& g'niite evr'boody

STUDY ! Chemistry (: I love Chemistry <3

Vanadium p+= 23 no= 22.9415 e-= 23
Nitrogen p+= 7 no=7.0067 e-= 7
Argon p+= 18 no= 21.948 e-= 18
Potassium p+= 19 no= 20.0983 e-= 19
Platinum p+= 78 no= 117.084 e-= 78

5 protons boron
17 protons chlorine
25 protons manganese
82 protons lead
92 protons uranium

Ion with 12 protons and 10 electrons 12 24Mg2+
Ion with 74 protons and 68 electrons 74 178W6+
Ion with 95 protons and 89 electrons 95 243Am148-
Ion with 33 protons and 36 electrons 33 74As3-
Ion with 29 protons and 27 electrons 29 63Cu2+

59 28Ni2+ p+= 28 no= 31 e-= 26
91 40Zr4+ p+= 40 no=51 e-= 36
14 058Ce3+ p+= 58 no= 82 e-= 55
79 34Se2- p+= 34 no= 45 e-= 36
45 21Sc3+ p+= 21 no= 24 e-= 18
13 6C4- p+= 6 no= 7 e-= 10

84 protons, 125 neutrons, and 80 electrons 209 84Po4+
27 protons, 32 neutrons, and 25 electrons 59 27Co2+
73 protons, 108 neutrons, and 68 electrons 180 73Ta5+
31 protons, 39 neutrons, 28 electrons 69 31Ga3+

Alpha: 231 91Pa -> 42α + 227 89Ac
Beta: 223 87Fr -> 0-1β + 223 88Ra
Alpha: 149 62Sm -> 42α + 145 60Nd
Beta: 165 61Pm -> 0-1β + 165 62Sm
Alpha: 249 101Md -> 42α + 245 99Es
Alpha: 146 62Sm -> 42α + 142 60Nd
Beta: 198 85At -> 0-1β + 198 86Rn
Alpha: 150 64Gd -> 42α + 146 62Sm
Beta: 152 54Xe -> 0-1β + 152 55Cs
Beta: 120 55Cs -> 0-1β + 120 56Ba

one in a million

I've been going through so much lately, and I haven't really told anyone about anything that's been happening except for my brotha deveon. He's been helping me alot through so many different things and had my back like no other. I'm glad I have a friend like him, makes me feel more loved. There are so many things thats been bothering me, so many things, people bleh. I wish I can just run away to peace where there are no distractions but the sound of peace and the feel of comfort that you feel even if you may be miles away. I've met so many different people in the past year, and learned many things. Made countless amount of mistakes and learned from them. I've lost my closest ones and important things that belonged to me, and they're things that I can't get back, but they're the obstacles that God put me through to make me stronger, and theres nothing that I can do to avoid those things. It's already the last day of November and it feels like November just started, time just passes by like its nothing, but so much happens in that time. I hope things improve and get better in December. I've had so many wishes and hopes this month, and I've been praying about so many things. I've improved on personal subjects, but made mistakes, when I knew better. I think I might've gotten a cold from all that freezing during the weekend ): Like he said to her on that piece of paper, I wish that WE can have more time together with each other than the time that we have missing each other. NMN+DI. I've been falling so far away from God lately, and it's not as easy as I thought it would be to get back. I'm trying to make things easier for everyone... but I don't know if things are working out. I havent been going to youth group for over a month now, and I'm still debating on if I should be going back or not. I wish I had Deveon and Nikki with me there, but they can't be there. I should be taking a different path in life right now, and making the right decisions unlike those that I've been making nowadays. Deveon, proved a good point to me and told me that I know better and that I shouldn't be doing the things that I'm doing right now, and be taking a different path in life. But if I do take the other path in life, instead of falling into the trap that I've been fallin into to take the path that I don't seek, is to be losing YOU. & I don't want that to happen, I know things can change and I can keep you at the same time. So I really hope my plan works out, I needa be to more out there with my opinions, and get my head back in the game, and stand up back onto my feet and be more productive, cus I've been sluffin big time these days. I need my superman with the red cape to come save me from all this danger and take me back, hello ? My prince charming, where art thou ?

There's nothing in this world
There's not another boy that could make me feel so sweet
Cos he fills up my life
Like the sun, he shines bright
Boy, come with me now

11/26/09

yeahh , im so tired . couldnt even sleep well last night . . . did too much of that "thinking" . ehh ~ mann , i dont know . i feel so lost without them ! they're so important to me , they're like . . . IMPORTANT ! & even Nikki and Deveon knows that I'd go crazy over them . & its GONE ! ):
but , I'm glad that I have a brotha like Deveon . He said that he would help me find it , and go to all the stores that we went to yesterday after school and to all the classrooms and see if he can find it for me . hopefully , i can find it . i feel like so much of me missing ! i want to smile like how i do when i read those little things . they may not mean so much to you , but to me , its one of the most important things in my life . its the only thing that i had that HE gave to ME .
& i dont know how to tell him . i feel horrible , i feel so bad right now , i just want to run away . uhhh . he's probably going to be so disappointed ): he's been waiting so long , and so paitiently . . . dang , its going to suck seeeing him disappointed . but , i really do hope that everythings going to be alright .

WHY !? did this have to happen now . . .
_________ happy thanksgiving everyone !

i miss yooooh .
)":

): why ? ;

TODAY IS JUST NOT MY DAY ! FORREAL !
sighhh ,
i didnt get to talk to young all day today ):
i didnt feel good at all today , & had a heartburn for over 9 hours .
& i found out that i didnt have my wallet and that i lost it about 40 minutes ago .

i dont know where he's at , or what he's doing or who he is with , and this heartburn is just plain h*ll, and my wallet ? ):
the most important thing ...
my permits in there , my school id , all my money, and most of all the letters that i wrote to young , "love letter #6,7,8,9,10" are in there , and most importantly ... that one thing that always made me happy whenever i am down , and feeling drowzy , that one thing that makes me happy and smile whenever im sad and just not in a good mood ; the letters that HE wrote for me . those that made me smile like nothing else in this whole world can , and made me feel as if i was in heaven for just that minute , that one thing that makes me so happy is gone now . and i cant find it anymore .
its so hard to contact him , talk to him , hear his voice, and most of all just see him .
i'm suppose to go to puyallap on friday and spend the night there and come back on saturday , but i dont have the money for the movie that i was going to watch which i've been waiting for a week "new moon" and buying him ggampungi ; his favorite , at the korean resturant and see him eat filled with joy and the money for taking the pictures in the photobooth ; to capture the special moment in my life . and i made him wait , and he hadn't heard the good news yet , and im so sorry for making you wait . . . . . . . for nothing , now that i dont have any money .
now everything is ruined , my life is so ridiculous , nothing gets any better .
and things been just getting worse , i cant take it anymore , and sometimes i just want to give up on everything , but theres just that one thing that keeps me going ...

the only thing that i truly want for christmas this year ; is to keep you in my arms forever and not letting you go , to keep you in life and not seeing you off , to keep you as mine and only mine forever , and experience all things that i havent with you for the rest of my life .

[ those dreams that i've had for 3 days strait . . . the 3rd night ; the dream of loss . i think this is what it meant by loss , but whats next if the 3rd night was just that . . . what'll happen with the 2nd ? ]
God please help me out here , hollla backk ! i cant hear you , & i keep begging for more , and asking you to help me , i pray and pray about it 24/7 , and i still havent gotten the feeling . . . is everything going to alright ? ]

i miss you babe , i miss you . be safe and dont get into any trouble kay ? be good , and dont be doing bad things . i love you , sweet dreams , goodnight & sleep tight dont let the bed bugs bite . [i wish you were here to say "& keep your butthole tight"]

my list

*things that i want to do with my boo*
- kissing in the rain
- kissing in the snow
- couple ring
- watching the sunset/rise
- going shopping together @ the mall
- walking on the beach
- taking pictures in a photobooth
- couple tee & actually wearing them haha
- watching a movie at the movie theater
- eating cotton candy together
- going to a park
- having a picnic
- going to the mountains to snowboard
- going to the sauna
- going to NRB
- cooking together
- matching PJ's
- attending a dance together
- making snow angels in the snow
- experiencing the first snow fall w/

I WANT THIS !

Christmas 2009

ahaha , danng ! Christmas is almost coming up , it seems like 2008 just ended .
Haha , I will never forget '09 summer , and the people that i met in '09 and all those crazy things that i went through . ahah , even more than the november and december of 2008 . ahaha , seems like it was just yesterday . i hope its a white christmas this year ! (: && i really wish that i can keep you forever and ever and ever and ever and ever yadiyadiyada ~ ahah. pictures with santa this year @ the carousel will be great ! <3 TU3 retake '09 . ahah . i love TU3 & will never forgett , ahah . its like a tradition , this time of the year .... ahaha . yeahhh
soo , you should check out my wish list for this year ! (:
ahahahaha ------------------------->

Part Of My Wish List (: #3

vspink.com
$25 crewneck + $25 signature pant
this is something that i would LOVE LOVE LOVE to get for christmas more than that robe ! (: but still get it NIKKI :D

Part Of My Wish List (: #2

americaneagleoutfitters.com

Part Of My Wish List (:

bathandbodyworks.com
& nikki's getting me to robe (:

hmp .

nehh ! i agree ! i want snow ~ ahaha , it'd be so great if i experience the first snow day with younginn ! (: & if it was a white christmas it'd be so pretty . lol ,
me and nikki went to our favorite store in kent station while waiting for the meeting at city hall to start again . but mannn , i fell in love ! ahah i love that store , it made me miss younginn more than i already am . i wish i can own that place (: mmmmmh , working @ a slaughterhouse killing animals ? hmmm , ahaha . yeeeeah , I LOVE DERRICK SAN ! (: ahahaha , <-- there you go lil' buddy , ahaha i put you on my blogg ! pshhh , better feeel luckkyy <3 lol . yeeeeeeeee ~ thats all i want to say for now , brb ! later toniitte , possibly . (: ahaha .

peeeeeeasssssssssssh .
I LOVEE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOUNG CHO FOREVER !
[ & YOU ! needa back off and not get into my business , cusss ! you dont know me , i dont know you , and i dont like it when YOU get into my business and talking sheit bout me when you dont even know me . ARIIITE !? i hear from you once again , next time i see you , we're going to talk ! :D ]

i try ... i fail ...

gah x.x
i fail in life .
i swear , i had all of them down .
and i was right too !
i think the answer sheet was wrong or something .
but its better than waiting to see if you got it right or wrong like regular KM , we get out score as soon as we're done .
only if i said CO32- for carbonide instead of Co32-
and NH4+ instead of Nh4+ for Ammonium , i never shouldve changed it .
EFFF!

glee ! (:

yeeee ~
getting out of school @ 10:50am tuesday and wednesday && no school thursday and friday ! (: ahaha
CWI Sustainability Project is due 24th , Final is due 25th .
Things Fall Apart Group Project of English Due 30th
Kanji-Hiragana Test Tomorrow in Japanese
Ions Quiz Today in Chemistry
IB Pre-Calculus Chapter 3 Part 2 Test Tomrrow

I cant wait till this weekend ! (: ahhh , super excited ! :D hope mother says YES , hopefully .

-------
nehh ~ ive had this dream for 3 days , it all connects . its so strange and so scary . sighh , i hope everything will be alright though .

yessh ! out of 4th CWI and LUNCH in about ..... 8 minutes ? ahah woooh ~
i miss younnggg ~ ):

<3

ahahah ! (:
yeahhh , i dont know . another sunday went byebye .
i don't like it , i really don't . uhhh ,
but oh well , like i can really do anything about it +_____+
i cant wait till the weekend !! im super excitedd !
I FREAKING MISS YOUNNGGGG !
gahh x.x

i wish i can fly . ahahah (:
wooow , my wallet feels so much more thinner whithout all of the thick letters in there . ahahah . mmmmh, i want to watch new moon ! nehhh , saturday better come fast !
& getting off of school @ 12:00 tuesday and wednesday ! cheyyahhh ! (:
ahhaha i miss deveon too ): ehhh , oh well , i get to see hinm tomorrow anywayss .aahaha .


let make tomorrow a happy day ! :D i wanna be happy tomorrow ! (: aahaha ,

I LOVE YOU BABE ! <3


ps ; zack is my new pen pal ! (: ahahha yayyyy ! lets exchange letters sonn (:

love said to me . . . today ;

chyeeeh boii ! (:
hahaha , just got home ;
mmmh , boo came down to Kent for the first time now .
&& it was more for the money than anything else , but it was better than nothing ,
ahahah (: im just glad that i saw him , and i get to see him tomorrow too (: ahhh ~
we got a couple ring today too , its not formal and its not fake , but its cute and simple ~ (:
- getting a couple ring
checked on the list of what i want to do when i get a boyfriend ,
- kissing in the rain ! ^^*
ahaha did that today too (: mmmmhm , for the first time too . it was amazing & i loved it . ahaha now i can say that i've kissed in the rain before ! (:
2 check marks down on my list all in one day , woow ! isnt that great ?! ahahaha :D

but i lost something today , i hope i can get most of it back tomorrow though . ive been waiting for it for for than 3 months for it ): but you have to make some sacrafices for the love one riite ? sighhh , i miss it already ): i feel . . . so blehhh , butt !@#$%^& yeahh . . .

mmmmh , i missed him so much and i got to see him before next weekend , and it makes it even better that i get to see him tomorrow ! (: ahahaa , i met spencer and orlando today , they're actually pretty cool , especially spencer (: even if he's kinda short , i was surprised , almost my height , but cute ! ^^* ahahah , Orlando seemed to be . . . blank , i couldnt really tell his expression but from what i saw it wassnt that much of a good mood , but im still glad that i got to see them . ahah i hope we can have fun next weekend , i cant wait .

i want to go to the thing on 12/11 but , he says that he doesnt want me there . but things will go down all good hopefully . i pray about it everyday , everynight , every morning and once before every meal i take . i never prayed so hard and so much for one person in my whole life , but i know that God will let things go all good . & like he once said to me before , there're are good reasons behind everything that happens , and things dont happen just because . even if i miite not be there to see him that day , he'd better off without me there . maybe its because he doesnt want me to see him like that . . . but , if he insists , theres nothing i can really do but just wait . its going to worry me alot and it is riite now . but pray pray pray and hope things will be ayeee okayy ! (: ahaha [ datt ryhmess (: ]

28th will be the last day i will see him before 12/11 , and i have a feeling that im going to miss him the most and want to see him to most till the next time i see him after 11/28 . we're going to have lots of fun , and laugh alot , and make many memories we can cherish forever in just one day .

i never thought that one person can make me so happy , and keep me on my heels everyday . . . but even if some think that its just infactuation , sometimes i think its real love . & i hope we will last forever . cus i can see it (:
he said something that i wont forget , ahaha <3 his warm heart and loving self will always confort me and make me smile anyday . his laughter will fill my heart with joy and take all stress off my mind , and his smile will make me smile and make my day , his kisses never get old and is never cold , and his warm hugs will make me love him even more and anyday .

lemme just say , before i do anything else toniittee . . .
I LOVE YOU YOUNG CHO , and i really mean it (:

november 20th

i cant wait till OLOT ! (:
ahahaha , people were getting super buck during lunch today ~
ahhh , i needa date before decemeber 5th ,
rawrrrr ~


can't wait till next weekend !!
happy one month nikki and deveon ~ <3

headache again

i havent had a headahce for a while , and here we go again with this headache .
ahhh , advil anyone ?!
uhh , i hate CWI .
i don't like school anymore .
i just cant wait till next weekend shoot

NEW MOON came out today , but cant watch it till next saturday .
):


HAPPY ONE MONTH BROTHA ~
............................... & NIKKI .
ahaha

<3 - awh

deveon and nikki , are so cute ^^*
just do it [nike swoosh]

Buttface

i miss buttface ):
i miss buttface ):
i miss buttface ):

what happened to "buttface & crackerpole" ?
ughh .

Deven Issak & Nikki Molinaa

deveon and nikki .
i love you ~

Tweet ! Twitter !

OKAY !
WHY DO YOU CARE ?!
JUST LEAVE IT , IGNORE IT , BLOCK IT OR SOMETHING G'DMIT .
!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@$%^&*()*&^%$#@!

Quater 1

My grades never looked so ugly in my life , its so disgusting it makes pig mud look fresh and clean . i wish this year was as easy as freshmen year . this is really sad .

uhhh , i cant wait till next year , it's going to be so much more easier .
+_______+


i can't wait till next weekend so i can relieve my stress and feel better dang its .
uhhhh ... fml.


+ Quater 1 just ended . TODAY

Rain

rain rain go away , come again some other day
if you dont i dont know care
i'll pull down your underwear ~

nikki and deveon got to walk in the rain even before 10/20
&& me and young didnt even walk in the rain since 08/28
when they got to run in the rain ):

rain rain go away come again some other day .
[the weather man is snoring... freaking WAKE UP and make the sun shine dang it .]

Frozen Yogurt & Bubble Tea

i want some frozen yogurt .
i havent had bubble tea or frozen yogurt for a minute .
shooot , going to federal way next weekend will be the solution to this problem ! (:

being a girl sucks , on youre 20 sumn day.

!@#$%^&*()&%^$#@!

!@#$%^&*()&^%$#@!@#$*(&^#$@!~@#$%^&*
uhhh , how i hate this day so much .
school was great , but things got bad when i get home .
LIKE ALWAYS .

and i just freaking messed up and pissed off my boo .
aughh , fml .




byeeee ~

November 18th 2009

the poem that i just wrote for the english reading project sounds cheezy now . uhh . i dont know if should submit that now , but whatever . I was doing so good with the whole no cussing thing untill mo-mo made me cuss in McDee's today after school . Now i have to start all over again tomorrow . if i cant make a day before friday , im gonna cry ): but spencers birthday is the 27th ehhh ? ahaha , hmmmm . i still cant wait untill next weekend , aha . finished the math homework , and i think i did good on the math test make up quiz thing in IB Pre-Calculus today ! The 1st Shooting Assignment in Studio Photography is not working out for me . But , I'll find a way to get a A for it . Japanese Culture Points are due tomorrow , gay . I don't even see why we need to be doing that anyways . CWI is gay like always , but the project is pretty easy . The new project in English is okay ~ ahah , I like my team ; Nikki, Deveon and Jason (: Just got a bill today ! Wooo ~ ahah . I LOVE READING ! (: & i love it when my baby sings songs for me . ahah , makes me happy .

words that rhyme with orange ?
uhhhmmm .
top 53 words @ http://slices-of-life.com/2007/09/05/top-53-words-that-rhyme-with-orange/

Poetry Sneak Peak

yeahh .
after school study ! (: ahaha
stairs with patrek, jason and da brotha !
quater ends tomorrow , && late start was today .

a week and 2 days left ! (: ahaha i can't wait till the break ~

sneak peak !
RP, RT
Wrong place, wrong time
Keep headstrong and boldface
Sister dies, feeling wanting to fly into the sky
Nothing feels right, didn’t even get to say goodbye
Checking to see if they’re insight nearby, keeping myself on standby
Feeling purple, like you’re in a whirlpool, hurtful, going in circles, just a handful
Dangerous, taking major risks, game on us, never pointless
It’s like running a marathon, one asks what’s wrong, then answers and says that she is gone
Mission incomplete, sinks and weep on the toilet seat
I have the real gentle stillness, which causes the severe mental illness
Dead folks say goodbye, you chocked on your lines and see the lie in your eyes
Which make us realize the real thing that made us live our lives, by keeping allies?
Deny that when it comes to high-rise that we cry, otherwise it complies to the denies that we made which theorize and unties the unwise
Knocked and locked again, behind those bars, being mocked and back again but
Knowing that there will be another time where the guilt for the real crime will come out in the meantime, and will look sublime
There is just one thing that will be circling in the hood and streets brawling like the aching in ones tooth
That it will come back to you again with the same, but triple the pain
Again with this tragedy,
With this vivid thing
Called REVENGE

Chemistry ; Ions

chemistry KILLS ! ughhh . the periodic table of elements and now memorizing IONS ?!
ohh jeeezz .
ammonium, NH4+
barium, Ba2+
aluminum, Al3+
lead(IV), Pb4+
copper(I), Cu+
acetate, C2H3O2-
carbonate, CO32-
carbide, C4-
bromide, Br-
nitride, N3-
hydrogen, H+
calcium, Ca2+
copper(II), Cu2+
chromium(III), Cr3+
silicon(IV), Si4+
chlorate, ClO3-
chloride, Cl-
chromate, CrO42-
dichromate, Cr2O72-
phosphate, PO43-
lithium, Li+
iron(II), Fe2+
lead(II), Pb2+
tin(IV), Sn4+
cyanide, CN-
fluoride, F-
oxalate, C2O42-
oxide, O2-
phosphide, P3-
mercury(II), Hg2+
potassium, K+
silver, Ag+
magnesium, Mg2+
nickel(II), Ni2+
iron(III), Fe3+
hydride, H-
hydroxide, OH-
iodide, I-
peroxide, O22-
phosphite, PO33-
sodium, Na+
tin(II), Sn2+
zinc, Zn2+
nitrate, NO3-
nitrite, NO2-
permanganate, MnO4-
thiocynate, SCN-
sulfate, SO42-
sulfide, S2-
sulfite, SO32-


this is like ... albert einstein stuff !

Too Much ;

constant headaches , only goes away when im talking to the boo .
werid huh ?
headaches been building up everyday since friday during 3rd period till the end of the day . took some advil as soon as i got home , and felt so much better .
got some homework done ! the CWI project isnt hard at all , its actually pretty easy . the essay is done now , so out of the way ! (: ahaha , new english project and the labs are due tomorrow ! japanese is getting gayer than ever , but whatever .
cant wait till the break ! wooooh , so excited !!!

i <3 deveon issaaakk ! (: best brothaaa ebuuhh ~
i hate it when im not at school sometimes , so difficult !
sometimes , i really feel like killing myself .
life is so gay ! no one makes it alive anyways .

end of the quater is thursday , and so much for good grades ):

g'nite everyone !
& i love young cho ! puts a smile on my face , everyday ! :D

IDK

after school study-ish with patrek & deveon ! (:
blehh ~ ahahah lol .

bleeeep blopppp blooop bleehhhh
iono ,.

UGH

wassup with all these non-stop head aches that ive been having for 4 days strait since friday . its so bad ! ): i dont like it . . .

advil anyone ?

!@#$%^&*

I HATE MY NEW GROUP / SEATING IN CWI !
EFFFF

FREAKING DEVEON AND NIKKI ARE ALWAYS TOGETHER !
!@#$%&%(*&#$q$#@%!@#$%^&*(*&^%$#@!$

I LOVE YOU YOUNG CHO !

awhhh oh my goodneess ! hes so cute ~ ahhhh , got news for nikki and deveon tomorrow ! (: ahahahhaha shoooooooot , you made my dayy today ! i love you i love you i love you ! <3
woooooooooow , i cant believe it . no one can make me smile like you do !
my cheeks hurt now ! (:
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
THANK YOU BABEE !
I LOVE YOUNG CHO ! forrrrrrrreaaaaaal !


MY BEAR !!! / monkey <3

Wuttebbuuh

i just dont care anymore .
its whatever ,
ughhh .

but i love my brothhhaa deveon isssakkk ! (:
ahahah


&&&& always + forever .
YOUNG CHO !

Blehh

suppuuhhh puumppped for tomorrrow ! (:
aahha , UW UW ! PICTURES ! (:
&& Summit ! WOOOO ~

going to KM @ 7:20ish ?
aahahhaa , (:

i love young cho !
& i lovee yaaah too brothaaa ~

Yeeeeeee

i needa say something right now !
ahhh , yeahhhh immmma fraekingg crack headd . shoot .
im freaking stupid as hell , [i know whos going to be laughing and cheeeezin when you be reading this !]
buhhht dang , i cant resist yourr butt no more .
asdhakjdhakdhajsdhljkdhlkahs
&& NIKKI IS SO STUPID SOMETIMES !

blehhh , i love you broohhhh ! (:

Major Head Ache

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EPIC FAIL ! in 6th Period - Chemistry .

Friday

OHHH ! TODAYS FRIDAY !!!!!
hahaahhaha , wooow . Im sloww ~
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after school ?
NHS meeting @ 2:20
dance practice
& i wanna go to McDee's with dahh brotha ! (:
haha

Medical Issues

i always been wishing for blogger to have a little thing where we can see how many views were on each post we have . but uhh , no .
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3rd period since ... head ache head ache head ache head ache ! uhh .
4th period ... freaking . . . . A!!! +___+ gayy , A word choice making S word !

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i just want to go to lunch !

OH ~ but i got into NHS ! (: WOOOO ~
my SN was on the bottom so as i was going down the list i was loosing hope , but ahah , im happy ! (:

tech ; projectsss ! project after another then another untill the end .

You're A "B" Word

on the phone with the superhumann !!! (:
ahahahah
lmaooo .
ahahha iono mannn . shoot .
best friend doesnt even knwo her best friends freaking anniversary .
she said ..
"your 2nd month is in two weeks huh ?
ahaha
sike ! 3 months niggaaa shittt ,.
- then she saiiddd . on thee 23 rd ?

NOOO retarddd , 28th .
+_________+


goodnighttt !!! (:

BLEEEP

ahaha , danng . how come those days that i pick to be happy and filled with joy , is the day where i feel all gloomy inside and all i wanna do is just . . . sleep ? i told myself that i wasnt going to cuss for a whole week , but i said the S word today ): so i guess im starting over tomorrow . dance practice was , pretty okay i guess . i think our first performance is on the 3rd , and the winterfest jazz concert is . . . the 3rd was it ? but i have to set up for OLOT ! it sometimes sucks being class vice president . but its whatever ahah , its worth it for the time being . i finally finished my "things fall apart" essay . the end of the quater is coming up soon and progress reports are going out . seriously , life would be so much more easier with a car . I WANT MY CAR RIGHT NOW ! i can't wait 2.5 more months .

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deveon always makes me happy , and nikki is just always there . && most of all just talking to my boo makes me happy ! anyday ! (: ahaha [i dont like being called boo or calling someone boo now because of .... AHEM ! *coughcough* but today is an expecption]
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iono why , buht it seems like ive been thinking alot about the past and people . friends come and go . i remember someone saying this to me , but i just dont remeber who it was . i dont think i should be going down to Puyallap anymore though . . . it just seems like im making things harder for everyone there . i miss all of them ): IH,ES,JK,SK . gosh dang it . what to do . . . i need young ):

<3 yeahhh , well . . . lets wait till break and hope for the best ! (: && i just noticed something , ahah yesterday 11/11 is just one month before . wooow . lmao .

i love you young cho

BITCH !

ahahhaa yeeeeeeee nigggggguh .
youre a bitch nikki ! (:
ahahahah
i love youu
.
<3

School Time ! (:

its finally 6th period - chemistry . today wasn't slow or fast . i think it was just . . . neutral ~ wow , the pre-calculus test was a killer . UGH ! I really don't like the way Ms. Reed teaches . Wait, no . . . she doesnt teach . Too much of the tech teachers this year ; Skagen [Chemistry] Reed [IB Pre-Calculus] Fisher [CWI] are too much college based . I know that IB Pre-Calculus is a college class but , she just throws work at us , something that we've never even seen and expects us to know how to do it . . then out of no where BAM ! TEST !!! =.=;; I don't like the way she teaches , and same with Fisher , although she is getting better with her teachings . But Skagen , is probably the best out of these 3 . It's just his quizes and tests that everyone fails . But they're actually not that hard . haha . One thing that I hate the most is having a UNORGANIZED binder ! AHHH ~ I can't believe my own boy had a binder that was like . . . DDONG . literally took me almost freaking 40 minutes to organzied . he better keep it that way , shoot . but one thing that i like most is when i get new stuff for school like new binder , pencil , pen , paper , ahahah ! (: It makes me happy ~ LOL . I knowww , weirrdd . ahaha , but i like it ! (: anyways ! Im bouta switch to Kelly for math . ahah && Drake is still the one of the best teachers that i ever had ! (: ahahah DRAKE ~ gotta love herr ! <3

2nd Period - Japanese ?

ahahah , wow .
just got back from 1st - Studio Photography . I guess the body parts quiz/test was suppose to be today in Japanese , but Coble isnt here today !! WOOOOO ~ hahaha , dang , i feel bad for her sometimes cus no one likes her , but she is a B word sometimes . Haha , eh . Well , I'm glad that the body parts thing isn't today ! ~ (:
LOL , now for next period ? blehh ~ IB Pre-Calculus ; Chapter 3.1~3.3 Test . +__+ GREAT . Oh well . . . just wing it ! (: Haha .

today ; lets have a smile on our face day ! (:



OHHH ~ I wanna make a FREE HUGS sign .
&&every movie that we watch in Japanese , is wackk !

ahahahah my day ; today

i really dont know why , but on the way walking back to the bus stop on Meridian to head back down to Kent , i was really happy (: Haha . My day was pretty great , i guess . Tomorrow ; i have a test in IB Pre-Calculus , ehh ~ I hope I pass it ! (: Haha , I scored a perfect score on the Chemistry test yesterday ! (: haha 100% WOOT ! I was so happy , cus it was last minute for me and i didnt study for it . ahah , made me feel proud of myself .

Thing to keep in mind ;
1. IB Pre-Calculus Test Ch3.1~3.3
2. Shooting Assignment #1 Due Friday
3. Japanease ; Body Parts Quiz ?
4. "Things Fall Apart" Essay Due Monday ?
5. Combustion Lab Due Thursday
6. Dance Practice all day this week ?
7. SLC Presentation . appt;11/23
8. (: STUDY BIG TIME ! (:

blehhh ~ i think i needa be studying more . . . i have to be on that super "yulgong" status , before i fail life . 24/7 study study study ! ahaha . life would be so much more easier with a car ! UHHH , I WANT MY CAR RIGHT NOW !!!

minor goal ; trying not to cus for a week ? ahaha (:

i love my brother deveon ! (: & weirdo nikki molina ! their such a cute couple ! (: ahahha , i miss my baby already ! && i can't wait till the break !!! WOOOOO ~

PEE !

Oh my goodness, i needa go pee right now .
But I dont want to use my hall pass .
Why ?
REASON - because i want to get the extra credit for not using any bathroom passes in class for the semester/quater.

Eh ~ I don't like Skagens Chemistry Class .
I'll just have to wait till 2:10 .
Imma run to the bathroom , ahaha ! (:

City Hall @ 3:30 ! (:

Veterans Day ?

woow , the veterans day video was actually pretty good .
ahaha , it made me think . . .
about how itd be like if my husband went to war .
ahemm young ! youre not going to join an army .
yeahh , well cwi ; some old same old .
cant wait till lunch ! ~

[more to come on VD ! ]

):

this is what i mean by those stupid things you do ...

ㅈㄹ

뭐!? 식구 . ㅊ 좋와하시네 . 식구라는걸 그렇게 생각해 ? 참, 어른이라도 넣무하다 정말. 식구들은 기쁠때나, 실플대나, 좋을때나, 안좋을대나 , 항상 곁에있어줘야돼는거 아니야? 오면, 들리구나 가시지, 몾산다고 이렇게 왕무시하면, 우린 뭐가돼라는거냐구? 어릴떈, 친동생쳐럼 해주고, 이젠커러 사닌간 식구가 피료없다는거야? 그리구, 어떻게 키워준분에겐, 3년+ 동안 연락도 안하구, 양노원에가도, 차자가볼 생각도안하고. 친아들이 아니라두, 친아들쳐럼, 친딸보다 더잘해줬는대, 그것도모르고, 혼자서 잘먹고잘살자는거야? ㅈㄹ 정말, 삼촌이라고 불러서 쪽팔릴정도야. 울엄마는, 씨에틀에 내려온다고 연락받은후로, 오빠들 본다고 좋아했는대, 그래서 우리한태도 삼촌들오면 잘대하라고 가르쳤는대... 오늘 아침일찍어러나서, 집 청소하고, 밥 차리느라고, 앞아도, 열심히 준비하고 있던 동생의생각도안해주고. 약속시간 몇시간 후로, 전화도 안오고, 우리가 전화를해야 연락이돼고. 오면 집으로 온다고 해서, 이름&주소도 다알려줬는대, 뭐? 깜빡했다고~ ㅊㅊ 엄마3년+동안 차자오지도 안는놈한태가서, 술많이마시시고, 잘놀고, 잘도라가새요. 사람참 병신만들고, 겁나 뻔뻔하시내~ 동생을, 동생으로 생각도안하고... ㅊ 정말 , 말이안나올만큼 , 징그렇워. 사람 무기 하는 사람 , 딱 질색이야. ㅈㄹ

4th Period - CWI Honors - Fisher

wow , i think this is the most that i have ever done in this class .
danng , always been talking to deveon .
time flew by fast !
ahaha
off to lunch !

JERK

whatever !!
youre gay .
=.=;
good night everyone .
ehh

sunday ?

another , sunday !
sike +_______+
yeeee, another sunday . . .
same routine , same routine .
blehh ~ i think its been about a year since ive been going to fgtfc .
eh - whatebbbuhhh .

leavingg soon . iono .

day and night .

Doesn't Get Any Better

it ruins the whole mood , i try to take my mind off of everything but , i just dont know what to do . theres always yelling in the house , fighting , we cant go a hour or more without fighting or arguing . even if things seem like they're getting better , just evertime it builds up , it just falls down and measures to zero . everything is just making everything single thing worse . i just need a break from everything . EVERYTHING ! I just cant take it anymore . i need someone to just lean on , blehh ~ i miss you ):

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
- Marianne Williamson

whateverrrr yhc pms

i seriously dont get you sometimes ,
why do you need to be so stupid . seriously , stop doing those dumb ass things that you do . sorry if you feel offended , but really . its not necessary , and its not going to help you in the future .
it was only 6:30 when i called , late ?!
ashdkadjahdlajhdljkhalsd
walking out in the pouring rain to go to his house for 35 minutes , when you just got over your cold , when the jackets you have arent thick enough to keep you warm. do yuo even know how much you worry me ?! youre off without your phone , and i have no way of contacting you. and just thinking of how much trouble you might be getting into , or the things you may be doing . when i dont even know wtf youre doing out there . forreal , youre on a long leash and im on a 1inch. cant even call me or nothing the whole day till i do something .
i dont know man

whatever just ...

whateverrrr .

back to the days where , there were no worries
where , hope and love was there for us 24/7
like the light that was upon us , giving us happiness like pain never existed
that one person was there , that made me smile again never again twisted

wanting to see how much hate and revulsion you can take
how much of a vex i am to you , filled with exasperation
delibraty knowing , how much it hurts to know that
i am that one person you wish you never met , with great desperation
e
& now with you , the one that was able to feel me and know what i feel within
the days , it was the hardest for me , you were there for me to listen
now with the time that we dont evn know how long it'll last
i sit here , taking advantage or every moment we can make as memories even when we're miles away , with pressure weighing in

i sat there once and asked crying, knowing that this was going to
happen , but you just didnt feel it
always keeping that up
never knowing the genuine

your laughter and smile , your modesty , kindness and caring self .

IMY&IS.

:D

Thank You Young Cho !

thank you , you just made my day .
talking to you makes me so happy , and takes all stress away from me .
its amazing how you can do that .
just listening to you laugh and seeing you smile , makes me feel so much lighter .

your smile --> nal byong nalra ga gae hae ~
ahahha

i love you babe (:

STRESS

Ugh , gosh . can life get any better ?! my grandma has over stoned in her kidneys, and there's something growing on her liver . so she needa to take like 500 surgeries . after great gma passed away in april , life hasnt gotten any better . uncle from canada and korea are coming and staying over at our place on monday . and theres a wedding tomorrow which i cant go to , cus im going to a leadership conference or whatever at UW . school , isnt as great . and money is always an issue . i miss so many people , and i just cant see them . so many things going on , and theres nothing that i can do about it . everyone's been getting on my last nerves lately, everything is bothering me , i just want to sleep all day . . . ehh ~ but talking him makes me feel better somewhat . but i feel so bad for him all the time , cus i dont bring out the best for him . i wish i can see him more often , all i want to do his just hold onto him for a long time , and give him a big ass hug . why cant i just stand there and hug him as long as i want .

i want my car ):

who are you

1. lets not talk about our flaws or things that we do wrong but point out the things that we do right and enjoy .
2. how come we cant just get along like we used to . i dont see why you have to be so difficult all the time . youre just a major hypocrite & and youre supercillious .
3. so many things that youve been doing has been bothering me , but you dont know . if you're really just the way that they tell me that you are , then youre just a complete crack head . but i know you wouldnt ahah
4. you ! really get on my last nerves , no one in the world would think so , but mann , i just really want to slap you across the face and beat the shit out of you
5. i love you like a brother now , i dont know what i can do without you ! (:
6. i hope no one knows about this , ahha i miss youu lil one ! (:
7. blehhh ~ i know , everyone knows . and now you know forreal , he's just a complete jerk !
8. ahahhhahhahahaahaha bitch ! just one word says it all (:
9. did you know that you were really not my first ? ahahhah lmao
10. i miss you , and youre the most precious thing that i've ever lost in my whole life . if i would take one thing back and bring it back into my life , it'd be you . even if you hate me like the fire burning in hell , i still love you with all my heart .

IB vs Running Start

RE: Nikes Recent Post

alriite , so i am debating on whether i should take full IB next year or just go for the running start . im already taking one ib class , IB Pre-Calculus , which is a college class . i want to take IB for the diplomat . and if i get the diplomat , then i have a high possibility of getting into any college/university internationaly as a sophmore . as a full running start student i can get the high school diplomat including the AA degree and go to any college or university as a junior . but the thing is , if i stick with the IB programme i still get the high school experience , and with the running start program i miss the whole high school experience . but if i take IB im going to do full IB and if i go for the running start program im going to go for full running start . i wish my parents would understand more of what is going on in my life , but i dont like them knowing about EVERYTHING about me . ehh , i just wish they knew more abuot how all of this IB and Running Start thing works , but they depend on me a whole lot to know what im suppose to do and make the right decision that i wont regret . right now , i think im leaning more towards the running start at highline , but the thing is , i dont know if highline can get all the credits that i get to the college or university that i will be going to . honestly , UW has never been on my list , but tell me why im considering it now . i wish the middle school teachers told us more about the whole college and future high school programs . and all the counselers dont know anything , and they dont seem so into our future like they are suppose to be , and they just expect to reach the average , when some of us want to go above and beyond the average and go beyond expectations for a superior . if we knew about all of this when we were younger , then we wouldve had more time to think and we wouldve known what we wanted to do by now . why is it that all of this have to hit us and complicate us the time when we are going through the most . IB or Running Start ? IB or Running Start ? what will be the best for me ? and what will I do the best in ? what is the one that i do best , benefit me , and that one thing that i will do and never regret . . . too much to think about . blehh .

my grades are killing the living hell out of me right now . . . and its almost the end of the quater . what am i going to do , why am i the way i am right now . uhhh God please help me down here .

what should i do ? somebody please help me out here ?

Nehh

Haha , so ... I guess I'm back on this blogger status ! (:
LOL , it's that time of year again , when I just feel like writing and blogging agian . Nehh , I will most likely post almost everyday (: ahaha , yeahh . well , yeahhh !!!!!!! mmmh , come and visit ! (: leave a comment . haha , i love you <3

I love my best friend Chester !!! (: