mann... i haventt been writing... like... forever.
Well it feels like it..
My backk hurtsss likeee aaa motherr cus of that frggnn bruisee
ahah my sholder hurtss from being on the computer for so longg
and i think im gunna die from not seetin cyh
ahaha mannn this bett
ahahaa
lol (:

Oh Man ! (:

ahaha iitee soo today. was a hella long ass day, && fckn hot too. Mann I was gunna die out there in Seattle after the baseball game. Oh man too hot too hot ahaha (: It was all good today w/ Young and Zack ahaha had fun with them two (: haha LOL. Buhh ISSSSSSAAAKKK cant even sayyy a frggnnn hi or nun. Mannn but i love that guyy though. ehh. Zacck pretty chill aha. Younggg ahahhahhaa (: OWWWWWWEEE! That one mother fucking beezy I hella wanted to beat up @ the spot, Uhhhh goshhh fuckin dislike that guy. SHIET. Buhhh besides that && Issak, eveythingg wass iite (: ahaa lol My legs are hella killing me though. Ehhhhhh, imma jusss get back on laterrr! (: hahaa peassssh (:

사랑하는 그 두분에게...

14년 이란 시간에
자족처럼 친하게
그립고, 슬픈날에
우리란 같이 있었줬든 사람들
1살때, 병원에서 다죽고 있던 절
기도로, 지금까지 살게 해드린 그 두분
정말, 그립구 좨송해요
가끔식 생각나구
맘앞아요
인사도 몾하고
좨송하다는 말도몾하고
증거도 없이 나가서 정말좨송해요
이잰, 1년이라는 시간이 벌써 지나가구
두분이 맘아파 해매고있는중엔
우린 웆고 행복해하며 사랐어요
다시 도라가고 십고, 아나주고 십어요
지금다니는댄, 처음부터 지금까지
맘에 든적도없고, 정말싫어요
이렇면 안돼지만, 어떻게 해야할줄모르겠어요
같이다니던 집사님들 그리고 친구들도 이재 다나가구
거긴, 목사님 과 사모님 밖에없잖아요
어렸을대, 친부모 들처럼
그때 까지, 많이사랑해줘서 정말 감사해요
언잰 다시 차자 뵀고십어요
저번주.. 마직막 설교라고 드렀을대
정말 맘아프고, 설래였어요
마지막 설교도 몾듣고 이대로 있어서 좨송해요
이렇게 돼고있는대, 참힘들실거에요
그래도 하나님과 함께 잘돼길 바래요
항상 제 맘안엔 두분이 꼭게실꺼에요
보고십고, 또좨송해요
그동안 정말 고마웠어요
사랑해요
-보배

FUCK YOU HOE!

YOU DUMB FUCK! DONT EVEN TALK TO ME BITCH! YOU KNOW NOTHING BOUT ME, SO STOP TALKING SHIT. MOTHER FUCKER. & STOP IT WITH THAT LOOK YOU ALWAYS GIVE ME EVERYTIME YOU SEE ME! WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM???!!! JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP FOR ONCE WOULD YOU PLEASE!

오빠

나...
가끔식 오빠 생각나더라
오빠처럼 날 걱정해준사람 없더라구
오빠랑 친했던 날들이 참 그리워
오빠의 심정 쫌 알갰지만
내가 그렇게 심했는줄은 몰랐어
오빠가 날다시 바다줄 날은 없갰지만
나의 원망은 버려 줬으면 좋갰어
오빠와나의 이년은 이잰 없겠지만
어디선가, 언재나 내가 오빠가 나한태 해준만큼
돌려줄 날이 올거라구 믿어
오빠가 이걸 일고 있으면
오빤 지금 내가또 지랄떨고 있는걸로 보이겠지만
난 진심이야
미안하구 또 미안해

미안해요-거미 Ft. TOP & SANRA PARK

If this were ever to happen to me....

UGH!!!

Uhh what thee fffcccckk.
I wanna kill someone!!!!!
What the helll!!

Because of his love...

DIET

TOFU,EDMAME BEANS & SOY MILK ONLY DIET
AS OF LAST NIGHT ! (:
FOR THE WHOLE SUMMER BREAK

The One

Wake up in the morning
&You're the first thing on ma mind
I dream of you everytime
&I talk to you at night
&You're the last soul
Before my sweet dream that keeps me tight
You the man of my dreams
Cus you the only one that can take me to the extreme
All those sweet talks
Long talks and jokes at night
Got me feelin so tight
You make me feel this way
& I fell for you that night
When you told me bout her
It was iite
Cus it was nothing but lust at first sight
It was nothin big cus it was not so big
Untill that day you told me
I didnt think she was outta yur mind
I didnt mind, since it wasnt the first time
Kept talking, and you kept asking
Making things harder for me until last night
Got me feelin so light but heavy at the same time
Until you said those words to me
That kept me holdin ya tight
Thought that you always be messin around
But I guess I should let that aside
And let things slide
Keep holdin on, keepin you by my side
Be my guide and dont let me by
Not too serious I keep my self under da line
Just to let chu know
It was you along as you may have not known
Keep me secure

One Step Late

Yellin and screamin
Not knowing where we be going
Stressin and Drinkin
Now hungover walking
In the streets at night
Not knowing where it be leading
Looking for someone
To help her out
But no one hears her yelping
Screaming her lungs out
Hoping that someone would hear
Her innermost feelings
Which a single soul has never leaned in to hear
Now alone in the streets at night
Dont know where to go
She looks for a booth to call him up
To tell him and clear things up with wassup
Drowzed in tears
Lookin high
She puts the phone down with the busy tone
Now walkin into da one way street
She hears nothin but her soul talkin
Thinks of how he turned out the way he did
Headlightss shinning so bright
In her eyes, the light turns white
Now she lays in the side of the street with a body no soul

As of Last Night

I wonder what it is sometimes
Smilin' all the time
Always has that nice swag
Anytime I passes by
Cus the way you talk, got me think why...
---------------------------------------------
All of our little talks
Those jokes and all those falls
I never thought that you would call
Because I knew you wouldnt do that all
Got to climb over that big ass rock
That always blocked my path
But I overcame that symied path
Got me thinking how I got through all that
& I got to see that light
All those little fight we had
That got me stressin all the time
Wasnt much of a big deal
But tell me why I was trippin all the time
Late night calls and IMing all night
Got me thinkin why
What am I doing tonight
I don't know how I got here
& tell me why you be
Always be trippin over things not meant to be
Seein your face at night
With your cousins on the side
Seeing your smile got me feelin light
But now that we're not like we use to be
Hope we can stick together like
As friends that are meant to be
Keep those promises dont be hurtin my feelings
No more clowning cus you know where I be
Don't be surprised when you see
Them yellow vans when it comes to be
The day your blow yur candles and make a wish to be
i lub you Issak Han
Dont trip cus I said guy.
Dont be in sensation
Nor in hesitation
Cus we both know now
Neither in cuiriosity
I didnt take it seriously
Hahahahahhahaa LMAO

ex.est O7202k9 Hahaha

Thank You !

From : Dongseng [Zack Han]
To : Noona [Sandra lee]
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as the day goes by i got nuthin in my mind
whatever i do seems as though as im jus wastin time
untill the day i met u and ur eyes that twinkle so bright
ur confidence, ur swagger tight,
the way u wanna stay up all night
lik u said we got chemistry i cant reely explain
got my head all rattled turnin sunshine into rain
im glad to be ur stress reliver its an honor to me
and wakin up to ur alarm is lik a sweet melody
but im goin in 2 weeks may never see you again
but im sure we will cus u and i will always be friends
dam im so confused i hope i never forget
the way u talk, the way you look, or i may regret
lik i said its hard to say wat you mean to me
the way u move yo body got me feelin so free
the way you laugh, ur sexxy side sometimes i wonder
but the way it feels inside me, mite as well be hungover
the cute and nerdy, weird and funny things got me thinkin
is this fo real? am i awake? cus it seems lik im dreamin
no more english comes to mind so han gul mal ha jah



ahahaha sike im jus playin, u kno i dont kno korean noona
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[awhhh man... dis kidd ahahahha. thx ! (: ]
hahaha

Its For My Boo Foo! (: aha

You are my sunshine
Over the dazzling sky
Under the sheet at night aha SIKE!
Nobody can do like you
G stat. like you, no one can do
---------------------------------------
So Original
Undefinable
Its all in between the lines
Take a glass of wine
& you'll see why
So fresh and clean
Got Swag
Walks like dat
Aberattion from all the others
So fresh and fly
Got style
So Nasty
Your eyes just so dazzlin
Your voice so sexy
& you dont know why
Your laughter in my ears
Like the echos from the bells of hill tops high
You make me wanna fly to the sky
Nothing but your shadows that I follow
Like little kids steppin on the footsteps of their mothas
I follow your way as a older brotha
Aha Sike!
Wake up calls
Dun work, so just falls
But worth it in the morning
To wake my self up in the downfall
Its all on it with the vibe
Keeps us sticking together
Forever and ever
Looking towards to seeing that light
When we go to get down
Instead of popping thizz at night
I say I love ya
But really, you know that I need ya
Cus evertime we see each other
You know how I feel
My hands & your head
May not sound so right
But you know what it equals
When it comes to time
You know it is right
& you feel it tight
You fall in love
As I give you my all
Not as fast as the waterfall
Take it nice and slow
And we'll end up...
In that place where we both
Fantasize of
The place that we dream of
That everlasting place
That we know we wanna see each otha
& stay together forever and ever
So keep hangin on
Just try as hard
To keep us together
As long as we must
Eternallly
Just so naturally
We'll be holdin on
Untill the world do us part

Respond to Your Request.

As the day goes by
I got nothing in my mind
& I think of how
You got into my life
I take a deep breath
before I let it go
The rhymes that I have
My mind thats filled with sick flows
------------------------------------
Its the chemestry
That keeps us meant to be
So strong
Cant calculate how long it be
You. My stress reliever
My breather
My smile giver
& My joy minder
Miles away but its okay
Cus we can put things together
easy, just like clay
First attempt
& I wanna say
Your the first to ask
Just after the 1st day
"IMs recieved" while I was offline
I read the lines
& gave me the 1st smile
Like I havent smiled in a while
You make me laugh
You're the daily feed
So lets keep our relationship together
Like it's meant to be
I may not be the best
But I try to be
We may be states away
But lets not make this easy to flee
**

Just One Wish

I can’t get you off of my mind
Seems like you have what it takes to be on my mind
Can’t concentrate or think of anything else
Indefinable thoughts that I feel
When I saw you I never thought
That you would be here in my life, a place that never existed
When you appear in my life out of no where
I never thought that you would be stuck in here
When you say that you love me
I hesitate and I feel that I can not think of anything else
The scent that was left behind when you turned around
The memory that you left in my life
Should’ve enjoyed that time while I still had it
Never thought that you would appear in my mind so much
You’re the only one that can make me smile or laugh
Even if you don’t see what am I’m trying to make you see
Have you ever thought that I would be like the way I am
I never pictured us being like the way we are
Confusing myself with the feelings I have
Not knowing that I can be so cheap and easy
To you I know that I can be better
Every time you whisper into my ear
I close my eyes and lean towards to hear
When you say “don’t be” I feel this way
The way I feel when I say I am sorry
Wanna say that I love you so
Wanna say that I want you so
Wanna say that I want you here in my life
Won’t you come back and stay in my life

Cus every time we hold on tight
I feel that I can be more alive
You give me pride every time you say ok
I won’t let go this time I’ll keep holding on you tight

Another, Simple Act

What is it that I feel
Do I have to take every meal
Is there anything I need to keep
What is there for you to weep
What have I done to deserve this
Was I really the one to reserve this
The outside
The inside
The real meaning
The true feeling
The darkness
The brightness
Just one place
Just one person
Just one thing
Will it pile up
Is it going to show anytime soon
Will I be able to see
Will we ever meet
Why is it that I beg
What is it that I will get
Why am I still here
Do I really not exist
Where is the end to this act
Is this really the fact
Have you seen the past
Is it still there sitting on the same rack
Have you already moved on
Like it was nothing but a rock
Doesn’t at least one person see
Is it really that hard to realize
Do you really have to try to minimize
Can I really just run looking forward
What is it, when I know I am going to trip
Does anyone hear
Will anyone ever listen
Why is it so hard
Is it really that bad

the "thing"

You were the only person for me
It was all misunderstanding between
It was all the truth
Just until it got to be brutal
You were the only thing for me
It was all the heart-ship that took us
It was all the love
Just until it got to the limit
Thinking of just how horrifying this may be
Staying up all night just thinking about one thing
Taking up all the pain that you may be feeling
I just want to tell you
I just want to show you
I just want to let you know
But you were so sure about things
You jumped to conclusions and I was speechless
You didn’t seem like the kind of person
You didn’t seem like you would be as crucial
Putting things in a puzzle
Setting things so that you would understand
Trying to put things together so that I can tell you in a way that you would understand
Why am I trying to hard
Why can’t I just move on
Why is that I am still here standing in the same place
Are you already moving on
Are you thinking the same thing that I am thining
Were you feeling the same why that I was feeling
Was it really all just a little dream
Was I a princess in wonderland just for a second
It just all seems like it could be fantasy
You may not know but you’ve been the biggest impact
You were my first and I didn’t know
When I am with you there is nothing else in my head
When I see others talking bad about you
I take your back
When I don’t know that in the hell is going on this world
I look at our picture
My mind clears out and I see a smile on my face
You were the only to tell me
And you were the only one that I heard anything like that from
Do you really hate me that much
Does one thing like this really have to get in the way of us
Were we just something to forget
Was it just something that was the moment
Have you thought of how I would feel
A betrayer?
Really?
Are you for reals?
I beg for so much
Was I going to the other way
I wish you would just give me the time for me to explain
But I guess you just don’t want to listen
I was never so afraid of anything
I would wonder if you would take just a simple greeting from me
Or if you would even say anything back
I would think so hard on things
But others would tell me
I didn’t know until something hit me
I don’t know why I need you so much right now
I will never forget you
I will try everything to get to know it
But please don’t change so much
Please don’t move on too fast
Please don’t forget about me
Please don’t be too happy
Please just give me that time
… I haven’t even said what I have wanted to

The Way You Make Me Feel

You were my only true lover
Just one thing got in between our friendship
All that was in between was skin-ship
Those lies that I made
Those acts that I played
I thought that you would understand
But I guess you didn’t approve of that
As time went pass
You didn’t see what I had come in the past
I did those things that were the best for you
I guess it wasn’t doing the best that I thought it would do for you
It was because I thought that I was doing the right thing
But I guess it wasn’t the realistic thing
All I did was fantasize
The best for you
Was the worst for you
Maybe I should’ve just said it
Then maybe it would’ve been different
I was so stubborn
You were just too concerned
You didn’t go with my flow
And my plans didn’t work out the way that I formed
Just a little but closer
Just a little bit faster
Nothing ever works out
We’ve been through this much already
Imagine how far we would go in the time being
Can you imagine where we would be
Can you see where we would be
Those looks that we gave to each other
I thought that you would’ve really known how I felt
I really thought that you were the real part of me
You were able to laugh and smile
You laughed and smiled like it was nothing
I wasn’t able to smile or laugh
But I saw that you were able to laugh
Ha-ha-ha
I was never able to laugh and I never had a real smile
I cant find that smile anymore
I cant hear the real laughter anymore
But I guess you can still see yours
I see you’re deserving what you deserve
Just make the best of it
Just don’t show it
And please don’t be so happy

A Thousand Smiles & A Thousand Tears

The fake smiles
The walks in the mile
I haven’t seen the real one
As you haven’t seen me as the one
The pictures that we take
The memories we make
Look into them and think
They may leave in just a blink
The worst may remain
But what is there that we can claim
Just as you left
I haven’t seen the best
Will we meet in the new world
As the wind whorls
The meaning behind those eyes
The clouds that I see in the sky
I feel the pain
As it rains
I pray
But I end up being the prey
The feelings
Those meaning
The love
Those move
The regrets
That we forget
As the memories fade
I don’t see what we have made
As I see those frowns
Looks like make up on a clown
It smears
And all I see is a blur
It fogs up and I cant see it anymore
I don’t see where we were
I want to go back
I run back
I try not to look back
But I just cant help but get you off my mind
No one can help
There is no one that is willing to yelp
As I wish
There is nothing more to fish
Should I just stay
Or leave it as they must say
Will anyone understand
Do I just sit here
Or will it again appear?

STFU BITCH !

Mannn WTF. Stop it with that fucking look you give me all the time. If you don't wanna tell me wasssup then just... STOP! If you have a problem with me then just tell me strait up! I don't wanna deal with people like you. I don't even care what you think abuot me as of now. But I just want you to know that, you don't know anything about me & so you shuoldnt' be hating on me. So STFU Bitch and back off.

유치한...

하지도 안은 일들을 갑자기 다하구...
별난 짓을다하고 않자있구...
이상한 생각도하구...
듯지도 몾하구, 해보지도 안한말도 다끄내 하구...
왠일이니, 정말.

하루종일 보고십다구 질질매구...
하루종일 치사하고, 유치한 짓만하고...
니 목소리 듯고십어 별짓을다하구...
너의 모습이 이리 그리워서 하지도 안을 짓을 다하고 않자있구...
바보 쳐럼 이렇개 있다는게 밎겨지지가 안아.

어떻개 해서 이렇게 됀건지, 정말모르갰어...
누가와서 날좀 구해줬으면 좋갰다.

일이어떻개 꼬여져서, 내가 이러고 있는거니.
정말... 미쳐. 미치갰어.

- 유치한 사랑.
너.

보고십어!~

I miss you Issak Han ! ):
&& Young , Zach ! ...

I lost my phone in Seattle today.
Hella gay...
Don't even ask.

Tell me how I'm going to survive w/out your guyss daily feed tho.
RAWR!

*SOOOOOBBBBBBB*

I freakannngg love you ISSAK HAN ! <3

너.

너만이 아니였으면...
니가 그렇지만 않았으면...
그날니가 가만히있었으면...
니가 나의게 그한마디만 안했으면.
난지금 이자리, 이렇게 힘드러하고있지 않을꺼야.

넌왜 하필 항상 이모양이니?!
자존심도없는 년아.
넌 살자격없어!
그냥.... 저리가... 꺼져~

나의대한 말도하지도 말구...
날다신 볼생각도 하지마.
난 니없이 살수있으닌깐...
니 할일하구, 계속이대로 사라봐...
어떻개 됄지어디보자...

ㅈㄹ스럽구 좃같은년.
니따위 피료없어

♥

okay.
what did i just do here.
oh man.
i totally messed myself up again.
how am i going to get myself again?
do i just keep going like this
or what?!
i thought that everything was working out just well
but i guess not
where did all that passion go?
where did all those people go?
where did all those special thing that i had held onto go?
where the hell did ya'll go?!
are you really going to just leave me here like this?!
just....　ｌｅｔ　ｍｅ　ｆｒｅｅ　ｆｏｒ　ｌｉｋｅ　５　ｓｅｃｏｎｄｓ　ｐｌｅａｓｅ．

aish

I stare at my computer screen
my fingers sit on the keyboard and my head screams
words get jammed, and crash
dont know where to start, and starts to feel like trash
my heart skips a beat
when i know that we're gunna meet
as time pass
i get more in mass
people mock
and i feel like a rock
as we become more separate
i feel more desperate
it leaves me here
and i dont know what to hear
can we bring tomorrow back
and leave the past sitting on a rack
the pain may leave
but leaves a mark
i thought i dreamt
when we first met
bullets come in
and you go out
you were my first
i was your several
you were my impact
as i was your past
the time comes
and your time just doesnt come
my feelings and thoughts develope
as i seal them in an envelope
i cant move on
unless you can take me on
i am deeply in love with you
but others say that i dont need you
i brang the trouble
and all i did was stumble
you were the only one
and i was the special one
i was innocent
and you were reluctant
you were soo sure
and i was on the shore
i trembled
you didnt stumble
it was all you
i was just following you
regret
forget
crackled windows
as poisoning as the black widows
the fright that i have
and the right you have
can this ever be
will you and i ever be
and again i need to let go
like i said
...
again
rotates
in a circle
revenge... BS




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사랑하는 그대여

한사람만 바라보고 산다고…
그 한사람만 바라보고 산다는것…
너의 그말이 이져지지않아.

힘들때마다, 니가 네겼에있어준다고했던그날 부터
힘들어 지쳐 쓰러질때 까지….
너만밎고 사라간다고 말했던날을 맘에 품고 살고있다는걸…

내가 맘아프고, 고생할대 넌알고있니?
내가 언재부터 널 진심으로 사랑하고 맘에 품고있는줄아니?
너 없이는 1분1초 도 살지몾하는걸알고있니?
날미쳐 죽게하는사람은 누군줄알고있니?

나만 바라보고 있을거라고 했을때는언재구…
널위해 한것이 얼마나 많은줄아니?

니가 그적 그럴수록 난걱정돼…

이번엔 정말 눈감고 지나갈까 고민중인대…
넌 지금 어디에서 뭘하고 있는거니?

Go Eat Youself

Wow dude. Okay. Take my freaking phone away. And you say that once I’m 13 then I can do whatever. And in a little bit, after I turn 13 you say, no after you’re 14. And after a little bit later I turn 14 you say no wait until your 15. Okay. Well I’m not going deal with this kind of stuff anymore. I’m almost 16 now. And in a few years I’m going to be out of this freaking house and away from you. You’re the one that wants to make our relationship work here, and I don’t give. The way you are right now isn’t making things better. Even if study says that I’m going to grow taller if I sleep between the times of 10-2am, I’m not going to grow. I’ve been this height since I was in middle school. Now give me a freaking break okay?! Stop saying, you’re not old enough and give some mother freaking freedom. I’m not a little kid anymore. I never even disrespect you guys, and neither am I the worst child from the 3 of us. I don’t whine in front of you as much as they do, neither do I stand right in front of your face and talk back to you, I don’t reject the favors that you ask me to do, I don’t grouch when you tell me something to do, I don’t say that I won’t watch the store even if I don’t want to, or even if I don’t have the time to. You guys should be lucky that I’m actually doing something for you guys. Because, I don’t want to do any of this, it’s only because I feel bad for you. You guys don’t even know your own daughter for being such likely parents. You guys don’t even ask how school was or how my day went after school or even during dinner. You guys underestimate me and don’t give me the confidence that I need. I never asked you for money; neither do I ever ask you to buy me clothes, food, school supplies or anything like that. I take care of my own stuff unlike any other, and all I ever ask for you guys to do is do something ever so simple; to give me the freedom and treat me the way I should be treated. I don’t care how other parents treat their little teenage girls, I don’t give a shit. You say that you don’t want to compare me to anyone, and the next thing you know, you’re out there just talking about how great this one is, and how much better this one is than I am. Well guess what, I know that you want the best out of your daughter at this age right now, but I can make my own decisions now. I’ve been living by your rules and their ridiculous now. I can’t stand it anymore. What kind of daughter would come to the store every day after school and watch the whole place by herself ever since 4th grade until she got into high school, and not get paid for it 3/4 of the time, who would skip all school activities, sports she wanted to do, sacrifice the time she wanted to hang out with her friends, and watch the store for 5+ hours a day, also on Saturdays to work for 12 hours straight. Who would do all that and keep her grades up with a 4.0 and not whine about anything, not say that she didn’t want to watch the store, never asked for anything for you to buy her, nor asked for lunch money until you gave it to her. Who would do that at that age?!?! Tell me! I am so sick and tired of this now. I feel like packing up all of my stuff and just walking out the house myself and take care of myself. But then if I do that, the next thing you know, you guys would call the police and search for me everywhere, and you’ll notice what you guys have had that whole time, and see how it feels not to have it there, and not know it while you had it. You guys would find me, take me back into the house, and then the next second you would be scolding me of doing something that you didn’t like. You want every freaking detail to be perfect; you want everything to be so perfect. You guys don’t even bother to find out how my day goes or how my personality is. You guys never ask what’s wrong with me. You guys don’t acknowledge anything that I do, you guys never come to any of my concerts, and neither do you come to the meetings that you need to attend at my school. You guys never supported me in running for vice-president for the freshmen class, and never officially congratulated me of it. Same with this year never supported me in running for 2012 sophomore class VP, neither did you ever really say good job or I am proud of you after winning the elections. Oh, then I think to myself, when was it when you said that you would give me all the support that you can give, and yet don’t even give me the rides that I need, and make myself a burden to everyone else. You guys say that you understand what I’m going through and how much you love me and care for me. But you know what, from that I see, you guys don’t know shit about me and neither do you care about what I do. So stop acting like do and show something. Say and do it. Don’t expect so much from me, because I am a human being too, and I make mistakes. Don’t expect me to be so perfect, because no one can be perfect. Don’t freaking get mad about something so little, something that is absolutely nothing compared to other teenagers, something that you guys do all the time; compare. No wonder I had nothing to remember from my childhood except for watching Sesame Street on the television when I was little. You guys didn’t give me the freedom, you guys kept me locked up in the cleaners to watch the store all day. From what I know, you guys wouldn’t have even done that if you were my age So just me a break, and let me go!

Sunday

Went to church like every Sunday. Church was... ehhh okay like always. I don't really like that church, I want to leave! But if I told my parents then I would have to explain every single thing go through this big thing. Their not going let me leave anyways. >__< It's whatever. Aish. After service drove to Krispy Kreams with my dad and got ice cream and a dozen of glazed and the 10cent coffee. Went on the computer to use the free Wi-Fi. Drove around a little and went to go pick up the rest of the family @ church. Stopped by the beach to get some fresh air. Then went to the Tacoma Mall to get something for the baby. Got the present, went to church to give the present. Stopped by Valley Harvest to get some strawberries and apples <3 Finally got home around 6:30ish. Edited Young's myspcae, which took forever and ever... ate dinner, and finished editing Young's myspace. Then edited his little playlist >_________< Webcam w/ Young & Issak again, but this time with my sister. It was more fun I guess. They wanted to see my sister jerk O.o WTF Ehh, young's mad @ me?!?!? Ughh. IDK. LOL. Issak is my boyfrienndd <3 hahaha [only to my sister] hahaha.
[Monday Morning, late Sunday blogging. Off to work, then off jogging <3]

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Haha mann. I havent been posting for about two days... >___<
Thursday
Well... On Thursday I couldnt post becuase I was on msn talking to young and issac w/ the webcam hahah [while CYH was spending the night @ Issacs house] Also @ the same time my mother was in the living watching korean drama's. I tried to be slick and not get caught but I guess my mom heard me typing or something and came into my room & says.. [야 이기지배야, 너남자랑 얘기하구있지?!?!?] && I was just... "..........." & took my computer from me. Then while I was texing them to tell them abuot the situation my mom comes back into the room and takes my phone away from me too. [@ about 2am] Then I just... went to sleep >____< Eh...
Friday
Mhh.Okay lesse. I woke up early compared to all the other days of my 1st official week of my summer vacation hahah. I had a Filipino Club Meeting @ my huose today.. I was expecting at least 10-15 people coming for the meeting but I guess not. I thought that I was going to be the only officer there but Jayson eventually came, & actually made it on time too. hahah. Everyone that was there all happened to be guys. [Morris, Micheal, Steven, Jayson...] haha the meeting went okay I guess. It was basically talking about teh fundraising & the t-shirt designs. Steven had a really good idea about the stencils and the spray paint for the Kent Cornocupia Days. haha. (: Meeting started @ like 11am and people all left @ around 3:40ish. Then I left for church BBQ @ 5:30ish... Superlate... >___< When we were suppose to be there by like 5... surpisingly we made it on time haha. The BBQ was quite fun though Haha. ^___^ I spent most of the time with Young, Issac, Sammy and Chadd though ahah since Esther left early lol. Came home @ 11:50pm, couldnt go on the internet because parents disconnected the modem from the router.
Today
Err. I had enough for a day.. >____< Woke up @ 7:00am. Extra Extra early compared to all the other days that I woke up. Took a shower and went to WildWaves w/ Richard, Cindy and Brian. Met Monique there, and later on met Hayoung and Yaeyoung. Hahaha. It was pretty... okay I guess hahah. It's boring now that I've been getting season passes and going for like 3 days a week every summer for the last 4 yearss or something. ahaah. It was so tiring and hella hot and what not. But it's all good hahaha. (: I got a tattoo on my left shoulder too ahahha. Its an okay design I guess haah lol. I finally got to drive in a few days... didn't really get to drive this week haha. Total of an 1 1/2 hours of driving was worth it. haha, the only time that I can actually enjoy driving is when i'm driving with Richard because I dont need to freaking stress abuot someone next to me fuking yelling @ my face hahaha. LOL I drive better without that anyways, haha.

Been in dramafree zone for the longest time ^_______^
[except for the little baby dramasshaahhaha (:]

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Rejection in Advice...
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Just Becuase

Today was.. an okay day haha(: I had fun playing MS though. If feels good to play again. But the sucky thing about today on MS is that when I got the free hair coupon I got a hella ugly one. Issak goes off laughing @ me and he tells CYH who also laughs at me too. RAWR I think I'm going to go get NX so I can fix my hair up. LOL. I did the webcam convo. with Issak today hahah. Tell me why he acts so cute on it lol(: He's outside his friends house waiting for a ride so they can go party >__< Haha. LOL Mann... Do I miss those kidss ahha. I love talking to them hhaha(: They're so funnyy haha I love our lil' 3 way calls w/ Young & Issak. LOL Even if we don't really talk or anything haha. They're so cute ^___^ I love themmm <3 Mann, I forgot to stop by Mathnasium for my job interview schedule thiny haha. I need money man... Ehh~ I'm already tutoring for $300 so I guess I'm going to be good for now, Haha.

My Current Mains
Young Hwan E Obba, Issak Obba, Esther Unni, Sammy, Nikki

Dats Wasssup

Awhh mann. Last night Haha. Had one of the weirdest 3 way calls with Young Hwan E Obba & Issak Obba ahaha(: Slept @ like 4am after us all falling asleep on each other hahah LMAO. Issak & Young Hwan E Obba are so cute dude Hahah. They always make me laugh. They hella crack me up, with their little jokes haha (: I love them~~ haha. LOL I finally got a charger for my computer though ahaha. Im sooo happy. But it was so freaking expensive >___< $90. Sheeiit. Hahah. But I was sooo happpyy hahaha. I waited fraeking hours and hours to play maple story. Waited for it to download... && then Issak calls & says that Maple Story didnt work. & CYH says that its not going to be until 5am. Mannn you're killing me!! Are you serious?!?!? >___< ehhh. Oh well... I was also suppose to wake up CYH @ like 7/8am today... But I was too tired.. I think I slept through my alarm ahhaha I didnt even hear it. I called him @ like 9:27am or something.. Haha He's like OMG I need to get up.. & I see him on MapleStory... when I thuoght that I made him late for something.. hahaha LMAO he's such a funny guy hahahah LMAO(: They hella make fun of me though. Haha It's all good though lol cus I love themm~ <3 haha. I think I'm getting addicted MS again, I need to keep myself away from the NX & I'll be good hahaha.I've been in the dramafree zone for the longest time now hahah(: [Just some super tiny baby drama.. but thats it haha & a little stress, but nothing big]
My Daily Laughter
- Young Hwan E Obba little jokes and typology, talking.
- Issak's cute acting haha (:
- Sammy's little humor hahaha
- Esther Unni's seriousness hahaha
I<3you guys